hmmm...susahnye nk jd baik...sshnye nk tolak godaan...lemahnye iman ni...

SALAM MA'AL HIJRAH

ASSALAMUALAIKUMWARAHMATULLAH...

Salam to all. its already new year. so as for today, my hijrah is to be a good girl..i think some of you know what kind of good girl i wanna be. so hopefully all who knows can help me become one. the 1st thing to do is to repent..repent..and then be as wat i said im going 2 be. insyaAllah..LOVE to ALLAH. dats the eternal love dat i shoud look for, dat i should chase for. hrmm..its been a while i stop reciting the holy quran. being notty the whole year last year didnt give me anything. its just fun and problem. hmmmm...i pray for this coming year, i'll become a good muslimah, and all the happiness. aminnn...

2hari dok umah ngan budak2 ni. xde g mane2 memandangkan date aku da kena cancel. boring sgt. mujur la risz ade tmnkn seharian. lame da x dok seharian ngan u kn. teringat time mula2 knal dgn u. slalu tunggu u nk chatting ngan u. chat sampai ke pagi. dat time u xreti nk tdo awl. bile u xde, sampai rindu2 sumer.haih..pejam celik da setahun kite kwn. dari stat u saket, sampai la u sihat. x sangka u bleh sihat sepenuhnya. alhamdulillah..u i syg u tau. jgn lupe tu..u r d best thing this year coz this year sux! haha apart from my job la..saye suke keja saye, yeay! i harap kita bleh kwn sampai bila2. bleh share everything. love u! MUAXX!

menangis semalaman...sukar utk membuat pilihan..tp akhirnya aku akur pd perasaan ini. aku masih dan tetap menyayangi mu...tiada duanya. sabar menanti waktu..biar seribu tahun tetap akan ku nanti..realiti tidak seindah mimpi. namun terpaksa juga hadapinya..tersedar dari angan ku, tiada yang dapat mengubahnya kecuali aku. aku yang perlu berubah. tetapkan hati ku dan jgn ragu..harapan ku semoga tahun hadapan menjadi kan aku lebih tabah, sabar dan yakin dengan kehendakmu..Ya Allah temukan lah aku dengan jodoh yang terbaik untuk ku..yang menyayangi ku..yang memahami ku..yang mencintai ku..yang dpt membimbing ku ke jalan mu...aminn...

TROUGH MY WINDOW:BUNKFACE

Don’t want much, I just want everything
Thought that I could, do almost anything
One step in front of the other
Thought that I could do it alone

In the blink of an eye, it’s just another day
Telling me why, I’ll find another way
Got this feeling, got me reeling
I can almost start believing

Now there’s me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there’s
More than you and more than me
Me and you
And we are not alone
Different view
We are together now
Through my window, I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

I see a spark, it starts a fire
Is this the one worth waiting for?
Thought that I could do it without you
Can’t exist like this anymore

Now there’s me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there’s
More than you and more than me

Now there’s me and you, you and me
We are not alone and we are together
Through my window I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

for a dear friend of mine...

dear friend...

we have been friend for almost a year

we learn to live and love together

we being in our best and worst

we just know who we are

and i don't wanna loose u..never.

~harisz hanafi~

happy birthday 2 u abang

how come i forgot about his big day? haishhh...bkn x ingat terlewat 10minit je..but still im d 1st person yg wish u kn. ur aunt 2 kire advance wish la. so i would like 2 wish u a very happy birthday 2 my beloved ijad..i love u and still loving u..hmmm cane la aku leh ckp mcm 2 kt die? on his bday? cane la aku bleh ckp nxyear aku da xjd gf die da? ape yg aku pk ek? aku nk bg peluang pd ady? nk terima cinta ady? ape ni weyh? aku confius sekali lg..mlm td saket perot.sgt2 saket..but d only person dat can make me feel better is just u dear..u are d only person yg tau nk popok i tdo. d only 1 yg tau masalah i. every month u jage i. x kire la kol bape pon i kejut u bgn tdo, u popok jgk. u tau x, semua tu yg buat u special. from everyone. ur concern and care. u btol2 nk jage i kn..abang..alin sayang abang sgt tau...walau ape pun yg terjadi, u are d best person i've ever met in my life. i love u...

saye di Langkawi skang. sedang setup booth sambil melayari internet. ohohoho...menareks jgk kt sini. mcm2 ada...sukhoi pny bunyik mmg buat hati teruja. sekali die pusing, perghh siap ngan flare lg. sangat2 excited!!! dpn booth fisheries ni booth airforce..ohoooho tambah2 teruja la..hehe

hmmm td agak boring so borak2 ngan ady. suddenly aku cam terkasar bahasa sket.huhuhu tros die letak tepon. penat la die dok warning aku jgn nakal2 kt sini. cukup la 2 org. tp adekah die sedar die pon sdg membuat perkara yg same jgk? haihh x phm btol aku. sudahnye die merajuk nk undur diri plak. if itu yg die rase terbaik, bgs la. if die still nk jgk teruskn, just teruskn. u kn laki, susah sgt ke nk buat keputusan? x bleh ke firm mcm bf i? xde nk melatah pun. relax2 suda..hrmmm tp hati org lain2 kn. xle la nk samekn. x elok pon aku comparekn drg berdua. pandai2 la korang. aku malas da nk pk. aku ni tau lyn je.

hai emo la plak aku arini. panas kot Langkawi ni. tekak da rase kering. cam rase nk demam pun ade jgk. k la nnt aku mengarut je lebey. till then.

td ade insiden yg agak memalukan berlaku. keta aku mati, abes minyak da...adoi slh budget. ingat lps la nk g kedai mkn. skali x sampai 10 meter dr umah mampus plak die. sory la azim ko kena tolak keta aku. gile macho adek aku.wakakaka...

hmmm arini ade org tu saket ati ngan aku. aku rase mmg ptt pon die saket ati. aku ni yg kejam sgt. suke nk menyeksa jiwa raga die. suke nk bg die bengang. aku pun xtau np aku wat camtu. adekah aku da xnk die ade wujud dlm idup aku lg? rsnye x. aku nk je die ade. ke aku mmg suke tgk die menderita? hmmmm aku x nk die syg aku sebenarnye...aku takut. takut aku tersayang die balik. takut aku sayang die lebih..aku x nk sayang aku pd ijad berkurang..aku x sanggup nk ilang die buat mase ni..u..i harap u phm keadaan i skarang. i admit kepala i asyek teringat kt u, tp hati i ni tetap pd yg seorang tu. im sorry k dear..please forgive me.

esok aku cuti, nk blk kelantan. blk ngan along pastu lps raye direct g langkawi 4 a week. haishh..kena tinggalkn KL terchenta lg. kena jauh ngan ijad lg. u sbr je la yg..da mmg keja i cani. xtau la u bleh thn smpai bile. yg penting hati kite same2 kuat. alin syg abg tau...

ok kwn2 wanna wish u all selamat menyambut hari raya aidiladha! muaxx!

i have some words with him last nite..i cry when i told him everything. and he just smile and laugh. he told me to be patient. bersabar...jgn gopoh. die ade matlamat. die xnk susah dikemudian hari nnt. bia susah skarang. die x mrh aku pon layan laki lain. die tau benda ni mmg bleh berlaku. die tau dugaan ni akan dtg jgk. but die tau jgk hati aku tetap pada die seorang. and syg die pd aku pon x pernah kurang..no one can replace him in my heart. i love u so much abang...till when tu i x tau but i will love u now and always..thanx for being with me..thanx for being so understanding. semoga ada jodoh di antara kita. aminnnn....

ketenangan jiwaku..

kursus da pon habes. tapi cerita aku ngan ady blom habes lg. hrmmm...smlm bile die accompany aku blk umah, byk yg kitorang ceritakan, byk yg di bincang..bile da dok berdua tu, kasih pun datang. bile g shopping same2..jln same2..i think miss my old sweet memories w ijad..da lame aku x rase happy mcm smlm. aku da stat suke kt die. myb jgk aku da stat syg kt die..ntah la..smlm time anta die blk, hati aku rase sedih. sedih nk pisah ngan die. coz i dont know wat will happen after lastnite. arini die nk blk ke sabah dah. boleh ke aku sayang die mcm aku sayang ijad? mampu ke aku nk behubungan jarak jauh? oh hati kenapa la ko terusik? cant u just stick w 1 guy? abang..alin mintak maaf..alin da kecewakan abang..but i still love u..now and always...

cant sleep tonite..xtau ape yg bermain di fikiran ni. hrmmm...hati aku terusik lg..senang btol die terusik. nape ek? x cukup ke sayang pd seorang? x cukup ke perhatian yg di beri? aku pun xde jawapan. sayang mmg la sayang tp bila ada yg mencuri perhatian tu, hati ni tetap berdebar...haishhh.. xsukenye perasaan ni..bdn penat, tp hati x tenteram..asek teringat si dia..sedang asyek dilamun perasaan..sakit tp indah. ape yg aku nk sebenarnye? anyone please give me strength..please make me stick to wat i have rite now. get me out of here....

esok pulang ke umah. skip 2 class. anta mak n abah g haji. mak, abah, ampunkan dosa2 alin..semoga mak n abah senantiasa dirahmati Allah..semoga ibadah haji mak n abah sempurna. doakan kebahagian alin dunia akhirat k..terima kasih diatas segala pengorbanan mak n abah pd alin. alin xkn sia2kn. alin sayang mak n abah, alin xnk mak n abah sedih. alin nk mak n abah happy je dpt dekatkan diri dgn pencipta kita..alin doakan semoga semuanya berjalan lancar dan dipermudahkan segala urusan mak n abah...

hmm..awk..np rase kurang da rindu kt awk ek? sbb sy sibuk sgt ke? ke sbb saye sibuk ngan org lain? hmmm..awk..np ek awk cam xnk phm keja saye? np ek awk x suke sistem die? np ek awk suke 1 sistem tu je? saye kdg da pnt pk hal awk ni...tp saye nk jgk tgk awk berjaya, nk tgk awk senang. saye tau rezeki masing2 Allah da tetapkn..tp tu la kn manusia ni x pnah puas. ade je yg die rase kurang. saye ni sabar je..xtau la sampai bile. mmg la saye ni ade byk mengeluh, tp saye cube utk phm keadaan awk. harap awk xla bosan ngan saye ke. dan harap la saye x bosan ngan awk..dugaan sume ni...awk..kalau ade jodoh kite nnt, awk tlg jage saye elok2 tau. iman saye ni x kuat, saye ni goyah, bengkok. u pun tau kn. i need u dear...i need ur attention..and i hope i still love u...

resting...

hello..having my own time on my bed..resting at home. i take 2 days off. dok umah plak asek jln2 jek. ahad ni nk g kursus kt enggor n lumut. 2 minggu lg tinggalkn umah n ijad. hope u phm la dgn keja i ni k. 16hb ni mak n abah nk g haji. xtau la sempat ke x nk anta. mesti sedih kn...i try k. mak n abah doala alin dpt kehidupan yg bahagia dan dpt kejayaan k. last week one of the cuppies got enganged. congrats lynn..first in d gang. so who's next? hehehe bkn i la kn..sorg da stat ni kire akn ade yg ke-2 la kn..hopefully sume akn jumpa cinta sejati. aminnn.....ari cuti ni nk watpe ek? nk shopping gaji x masuk lg. nk g tgk wayang kot. cite pisau cukur. jom2 sape kite g same2. ok la need 2 wash myself. nk mkn lunch plak. mau mlskn diri lg lps ni.huhuhu..till then.muaxx

ME & LYNN

I LOVE U MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY.....XOXO

Vanilla Twilight by Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

new skin

dlm ERL menuju ke Putrajaya. what a tiring week. blk outstation tros masuk opis. x kire arini nk kena jgk cari donut. Big Apple here i come! kempunan sudah wey..blk kena wat claim.giler r duit sume abes.gara2 tidak merancang kewangan dgn baik.huhuhu...so as u all da tgk, i've change my blog's skin. cute n simple. suke tgk burung yg bertenggek tu. memandangkan aku sudah dikategorikan sbg si BIRU oleh si OREN, maka saye mengambil keputusan utk tuka.hehehe..ok what biru. tenang je kn..warna langit dan lautan. very calm and cool. ok la my bat pon da week. chiow dlu. going 2 masuk opis in a while..muaxx!

oren dan biru

today along buat makan2 kt umah baru die. besa weh umah baru die. selesa. fully furnish lg. aku pun cam teringin nk mintak quaters kt putrajaya. tp x perlu kot.hrmm...as usual ramai yg tanye pasal aku. bile nk kawen? then i told them about my job, how bz i am, tros drg tuka soklan, cane nk kawen ni? nk kena carik laki yg phm la ngan keja..bile aku cite ramai yg last2 x kawen lg la drg geleng pale. risau dgn keadaan keja aku yg perlukan komitmen yg tinggi. xpe muda lg kate drg. jln2 la dlu.nnt da kawen da x bz kot..harap2 mcm 2 la. aku pon da stat terasa penat. naseb bek la aku suke keja aku ni. seronok dpt bantu masyarakat. seronok dpt berkhidmat utk rakyat. seronok dpt kenal dgn pelbagai ragam manusia. alhamdulillah ijad pun nk mencuba masuk sebagai penjawat awam. isyaAllah kalau ade rezeki die. alin doakan yg terbaik utk abg.

talking about ijad, baru je jumpe die smlm. we were discussing about color personality. die berpesonaliti oren dan aku berpesonaliti biru. org yg berpesonaliti oren ni x suka dikongkong.mcm die. dan org yg berpesonaliti biru ni jenis yg concern dgn org, amek berat dan seorang yg emosi.dats me.hehe...gelak je bace personaliti masing2. byk yg kena. yg plg best the statement org yg berpesonaliti biru sesuai dgn oren kerana mereka melengkapi diantara satu sama lain. dan akan mempunyai perhubungan yg hampir sempurna. hahahaha...insyaAllah kalau ade jodoh kite, semoga kelebihan dan kekurangan kite melengkapi hidup kita...amin...

LORONG YANG GELAP..wat did she meant by dat words? am i dat bad or is she dat gud. she's a santo.the one who never done anything wrong..or i think she just saw other people's faults. not hers. she's really gud in judging people. wat ever she said is right.and will always right..she also love 2 forgive..u dont have 2 apologize, she'll forgive u.yes she do. oh wat a great fren i have. im proud 2 know u. proud 2 have a fren dat makes me laugh everytime she talks about people. ridiculously great!

dis one goes for u. i'll forgive u. i know ur path will be very bright.just keep it dat way k. gud luck with ur life!

To anyone yg blom tau lg, ni adek aku, azam. adek kesayangan kot. die adek bwh aku. 11/10/09 aritu die fly ke Bangalore, India utk meneruskan pengajian die dlm bidang perubatan. sayu jgk la time g anta die aritu. mengalir jgk air mata ni. 5 thn die kt sane. aku doakan yg terbaik la utk die. berjaya mcm kakak2 n abg die yg lain. die rapat ngan aku. rapat sgt2. kire cam dok bwh ketiak aku jgk la. ko azam, dok sane elok2. xmo main2.blaja rajen2. ingat pesan mak kt ko tu. ko xde kt umah, jd sunyi la. gelap je bilik ko tu. hmmm..aku rindu kt die sebenarnye.sayang...

Ada berita lg. aku g blind date aritu.hahaha..sekali lg aleng membuat onar. kali ni kwn opis aku yg knalkn. sepupu bini die. umur da 30 tp single lg. dan die hensem.huhuhu~menariks

kwn2 dlu, knal ati budi masing2~kate risz. better yg bujang la dr yg duda.btol x? :-)

so ijad ade mane plak? ijad ade. ade dlm hati aku. masih lg berada di tempatnye..hehehe..xde sape bleh ganti tempat u lg tau. u r d 1 i love..muaxxx.

arini nk g sarawak. another roadshow 2 go. will b bz until 2/11. nk pegi pindah randah negeri. penat weh. pening palo ni. tu x masuk minit meeting lg 2. smlm da masuk pidato. mcm kayu je akunye pidato. xle dibanggakn langsung. tp xpe. at least i try.ha mane tau tibe2 aku bleh mng no 2?! we never knows. thanks 2 u boss 4 supporting me. hahaha boss pon dtg tgk aku betanding. gile sporting. ok la xle bangga diri lame2 sbb x best pon.wakaka. till we meet again bloggers.

lame suda tidak memblogging..bz sejak da stat keja ni. muka suda itam dipanah mentari.bibir pulak bengkak gara2 kepanasan yg amat. kena minum byk air masak pasni. blaja menembak mmg adalah pengalaman yg x kn dpt dilupakan. thrilling sungguh. 1st time pgg, siyes menggeletar.abes sampai ke lutut.buat malu muke comel ni je.hahaha..stamina kena mantap.xle lembik2 ni, kena kutuk je..tp sebagai peserta tunggal wanita, aku telah menunjukkn prestasi yg kire baik la jgk. xde la menyusahkn sape2. mabuk jauh skali.bangge2.heheh..yg x bestnye, dok lam kem yg x seberapa.boleh plak xde air.haisshh masam aku seharian. mkn pun ala kadar je.ape dijamu,kite mkn.bdn saket2 lg ni.ingat nk g wat facial la..xpun g massage.best gak.gaji da dpt ni boleh la banje lebih sket.huhuhu..blk dr sane, abg syg ku da menunggu. sgt happy dpt jumpe u. dpt peyok u. rindunyeeeeeeeeee......................sayang abg sgt! sori la ek gf awk ni muke cam negro dah. xkesah la kn..asal body maintain.knknkn..awk cpt2 la topup.boring la awak x msg saye..saye tunggu tau.make sure aaaa...

KHALIS & HAYYA

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU WAHAI KAWAN LAMA KU. SEMOGA BERBAHAGIA SELAMANYA DIRAHMATI HIDUP BERSAMA2...

Salam Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin

Salam lebaran buat semua..kepada semua yg mengenali diri ini, kwn2, pembaca dan yang tersayang, Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

To Shahrizad yg sentiasa di hati, maafkan alin sepanjang perkenalan kite. alin tau mmg byk salah dan silap alin pd abg. kuatkan semangat. alin sentiasa mendoakan yg terbaik utk abg.

To Intan Maryam, weh ade terasa ngan aku ker? hehe cayang ko sgt. sorry tau kalau ko ade nanges sbb aku marah ko.aku sayang ko sebenarnye tu..

To Khalis, Selamat Pengantin Baru. Thanx jemput aku dtg kenduri ko. lps 2 thn x dgr kaba, ko ingat jgk nk jemput aku

To Balkis, Selamat Pengantin Baru jugak. semoga berbahagia sentiasa di samping yg tersayang

To Ima, aku mintak maaf byk la kt ko. tah bape tong salah aku kt ko. x kesah la ko nk kwn lg ke x kt aku, aku mintak maap k.

To Risz, sorry jgk. thanx 4 being my friend. i doakan yg terbaik jgk utk u. u dpt kebahagiaan yg u nk.

To Ezri, sory la asek dok kacau u je. i tau u bz bangat. kacau u plak time2 x sepatutnye.hehe no hard feelings k. wish u all d best. slamat jd kapten yg besh! miss u la..hehehe

To anyone yg xde dlm list, mintak maap la segala salah silap. halal mkn minum. saye sayang kamuuu....

The One I Love

hey all..

arini saket mata. ade infection lg. x sampai pon sebulan pakai lens baru.haisshh...g jumpe doc td. canggih gak klinik kesihatan kt putrajaya ni.men scan je kad. so da jd pegawai kerajaan ni fee is foc la.just a matter nk tunggu giliran je la.

dpt sms from my boss. i need 2 go 2 klantan nextweek. another presentation. then need to rush back 2 putrajaya for another meeting the next day. hopefully dat meeting x pospone la, if not i need to cancelled off la my cuti for a day. aiyak!x best.

x sabarnye nk raya..x g shopping raya lg. niat nk ajak ijad g tp die nk ke pon? nk g bli tudung n baju jln2. nk jgk cari kuih raya ke, kerepek ke utk raya. nk buat kuih samprit lg kt umah..nk bg kt ijad, kt risz jgk.hehe risz u nk ker?sure sedap pny.mcm resepi spagetti i yg i bg tu.sdap kn.hehehe..

thn ni raya mewah sket tp masa plak yg x de. after cuti raya tros je ade kursus. im fully booked from 29/9 - 15/10. tu yg da tau tarikh. yg dlm rancangan blum tau lg. pidato la, pra la, induksi lg.mmg la sebulan aku x dok ofis mcm ni. xpe2 aleng kuat semangat. aleng kn workaholic.hahahaha.....

ok la nk chiow blk dlu. jap g wan marzuana dtg anta lasagna die. harap2 sdap la. lame sgt da x jumpe die. last time form3 kot.ok till then bubbye..

back 2 basic

back 2 basic

dont lost track

live the normal life

dont expect to much

be in control

be prepare

play safe

A new crush

i felt sumtin..sumtin dat makes me smile..everytime i saw him..

i want to see him everyday..talk to him everyday..tease him everyday..flirt w him everyday..

im in love w sumone else, but deep inside i do have feelings 4 u..i do miss u..i do care bout u..

and u also have ur loved one, but the feelings keep growing..day by day..hour by hour..minute by minute..

everytime u asked me bout my feelings, i dont have an answer..are we just frens, or we are more than dat? are we going to have dis kind of relationship or we will go futher more? can u not b jealous when i am w sumone else? can i?

hmmmm...its complicated..

BLACK EYED PEAS - I Got A Feeling

I gotta feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night

that tonight’s gonna be a good night

that tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x4)

Tonight’s the night night

Let’s live it up

I got my money

Let’s spend it up

Go out and smash it

like Oh My God

Jump off that sofa

Let’s get it get it up

I know that we’ll have a ball

if we get down

and go out

and just loose it all

I feel stressed out

I wanna let it go

Lets go way out spaced out

and loosing all control

Fill up my cup

Mazel tov

Look at her dancing

just take it off

Lets paint the town

We’ll shut it down

Let’s burn the roof

and then we’ll do it again

Lets Do it (x3)

and live it up

Here we come

here we go

we gotta rock

Easy come

easy go

now we on top

Feel the shot

body rock

Rock it don’t stop

Round and round

up and down

around the clock

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday

Friday, Saturday, Saturday and Sunday

we keep keep keep keep on going

we know what we say

party everyday

p-p-p-party everyday

got a feeling

that tonights gonna be a good night

that tonights gonna be a good night

that tonights gonna be a good good night

i met a guy, a new guy, a stranger

he saw me, called my name and asked for my number

he text me, he calls and send me a pic

he wanted to get to know me, to be friend and..to love me

how can a man fall in love in 3 second?

how can a man feels dat they found their match?

how can a man ask for a serious relationship without knowing their patner?

again a man fall in love with me..and i dont know what to do

oh God please help me..guide me

resting at home..duin notin~

im waiting 4 sum1 actly. since i g melaka, not once die call i..

mane die pegi ha? asal die ilang lg?

u, if u read dis post, do call me...

i need 2 talk 2 u, i risau la u ilang2 cani.

i try 2 call u many times tp x berangkat.

sume no u i try tp x dpt jgk.

nape la u suke wat cani?haiisshh..

please ya dear..

warkah buat mu

Dear love,

today m going 2 melaka. pegi jln2 lg. bz la my days now nih. nk jumpe u pon susah. mujur dpt gak jumpe u smlm. hrmmm...i miss u la..miss u lots. time u tny i rindu u ke x, nk je i pelok u. tp i ckp rindu siket2 la, sbb xde mase byk. haishh..nape la cerita kite ni x boleh seindah cerita dlm buku? hmm Allah knows best. jgn merungut. x baik, tuhan marah.hehe...u..take care k. i know u risau i jumpe another guy. i know u risau i fall in love w other guy. i know dat i x sekuat u...even rite now when i wrote dis post, im crying. crying my heart out. i don't know y air mata i berlinang...myb coz m afraid of loosing u, afraid i'll found some1 dat can replace u. afraid dat i'll forget u....

abang, doakan umur kita panjang, kita bertemu jodoh satu hari nanti. insyaAllah....

yang menyayangi mu..

me n henry

Hey guys! im back from Sarawak. pegi Dig It All kt Cap Square KL. g ngan ayeem. thanks to Hanim coz bg 2 VIP passes 2 us. sempat r tgk Hujan. tp x bape minat sgt la gig ni. bising, bingit. ape yg menarik is i snap a pic with 8TV Quickie guys! yes Henry!! the MOST eligible bachelor 2009!!! siyes ensem! senyuman yg sgt manis menawan hati. perghhhhh~~~~

~ME & HENRY GOLDING~

8TV QUICKIE

WWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Bosannye ya Allah..

asal la aku bosan sgt ni?

da ade kt kuching pon bosan?

da jumpe ngan kwn2 pon bosan?

da kua mkn n jalan2 pon bosan?

asal rs kosong sgt ni?

asal rs sorang sgt ni?

aku rindu ker?

aku rindu sape?

die ker?

ntah.

nk borak ngan sum1

tp mls nk call

ape nk buat ni?

tdo?

x ngantok plak

bgn la..

tepon la..

msg pon xpe..

~WHAT'S BEST BEING A FISHERIE OFFICER~

hey all been bz la..xsempat nk blogging. my new job need me 2 go outstation.seriously bz like hell. tp saye suke! best tau g laut. even mabuk.hahaha..lame da x tron laut.tuptup kol 4 pagi da kena turun. 7 1/2 jam ade kt laut. tuhan je yg tau. mmg gile experience. kalau bleh nk rase lg. lps ni nk try pengawasan udara n g skuba. wahhhh......seronok! bile yek bleh g menembak plak? lesen tgh buat. next week nk g sarawak. seminggu.then hari peladang Melaka. so guys, when i have time nnt i update blog lg k. till then.

~DESTINY IS A BRIDGE WE BUILD FOR THE ONE WE LOVE~

Kerlipan

Engkau yang datang
Seketika
Dengan kerlipan
Memukau rasa

Dan engkau pergi
Tinggal mimpi
Tinggalkan sepi
Di hujung jalan ini

Engkau yang pernah
Membuat hatiku keliru
Namun anehnya
Kau jua yang kurindu

Kini sendiri
Ku harungi terus mendaki
Puncak yang masih tinggi

Kini sendiri
Dengan hati
Ku gagahi walau tanpa kau di sisi

Jiwa yang pernah kau beri
Masih berakar umbi
Mengiringi perjalan sepi
Hidup ini

our 4th anniversary

its been 4 years now..and i still love him. im glad i have him dis 4 years. its been a tough year dis year..and we still keep on struggling..we still hang 2 ourselves.hoping there will b a future for us together.how i really hope i'll b yours 1 day. living w u were always b my dreams.let us keep on praying for our future...

abang, alin sayang abang sangat.sangat2.abg usaha k.jgn putus asa.kuatkan semangat.alin sentiasa ada dgn abg. i love u!

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY NOR AZLIN MOKHTAR!!!

 

Seronok harini..spend time dgn you..masak utk you..borak dgn you..lepak dgn u..mcm mule2 becinta..harap2 sampai jodoh kita..insyaAllah..

alone in my house..alone on my bed..accompany w my teddy..while thinking of myself..thinking of u..i love my teddy so much, and i love the guy who give this teddy to me. my first gift he gave after he gave himself to me..i thank you for this precious gift. the 1 dat keeps me company when im alone. dat keeps me company when we were far. dat keeps me company when i miss u. yes i miss u. everyday i miss u, since the day we met. u are the 1 in my heart. u never leave me..even sumtimes there's other guy who comes and go.yet u stay. stay in my heart..u keep me close 2 u. everytime i hear ur heart beats, my heart beats faster. everytime u say the word love, i knew dat u really mean it..everytime u kiss me, im wanting more..everytime u hold my hand, u hold them tight.u makes me feel safe when im with u..u makes me happy when im with u..u makes me feel like i am the only girl u need in your life..

....i love u....

21 GUNS-GREEN DAY

Do you know what's worth fighting for,

When it's not worth dying for?

Does it take your breath away

And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?

And you look for a place to hide?

Did someone break your heart inside?

You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms

Give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms into the sky,

You and I

When you're at the end of the road

And you lost all sense of control

And your thoughts have taken their toll

When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass

And the hangover doesn't pass

Nothing's ever built to last

You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms

Give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms into the sky,

You and I

Did you try to live on your own

When you burned down the house and home?

Did you stand too close to the fire?

Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die

And you can't get another try

Something inside this heart has died

You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns

Lay down your arms

Give up the fight

One, 21 guns

Throw up your arms into the sky,

You and I

sayang sayang sayang..

gud morning sunshine! wat a lovely day today. m glad u back w me. m glad u call me. m glad u still need me around u. m glad 2 hav u. saye sayang kamuuuuu........................

i got 2 new frens, 2 new sis, min n atie. sonok jugak layan budak2 kecik ni. memandangkan aku xde adek pompuan, y dun i make them my adik angkat? cam best jek.hikhikhik..di kala kwn2 bz ngan life, ade jgk adik2 ni tmn. x la boring. lgpun kasih sayang i ni byk sgt..nk bg sorg sikit. haisshh cpt btol la i sayang org.

lg few days i'll turn 24. ade x org nk celeb? myb im not around on dat date. kena g ganu la. dunno yet wat task. xkire nk paksa gak drg sume celeb bigday aku. cik azlin ni demand sket. x mo kecil2an nk besar2an saje.hehehehe...saye nk strawberry cheese cake..

intan maryam..bape lame lg nk dok klantan?? aku rindu ko la..rindu nk bebel2 kt ko. rindu nk tgk mulut muncung ko tuh. rindu nk masak2 ngan ko. rindu nk gelak ketawa n nanges ngan ko.hukhukhuk..luv u cayang!

isnin ni cuppies ajak g men futsal. ish i x pnah main la..nnt i pengsan sape yg susah? i jd cheerleader je boley? ade guys x? hehehe tanduk suda kua. sapekah mangsa seterusnya? not my prey la, i've always b d prey. always b the 2nd girl. always b d bridge 2 cross the lake. x kesah la kn..if it is for my frens happiness, im willing 2 sacrifice. coz i luv u frens! muuuaaaxxxxx!!!!

 

sonok ade kwn. kwn susah senang. idup x boring. sonok borak2. bile borak ngan kwn sume bende jd menarik. btol la kate org, xde sape bleh idup sorg ats dunia ni. sdgkn nabi adam pon Allah bg hawa jd kwn. kwn ni bkn luaran jer..kalau nk bekawan bia ikhlas. jgn ade niat x bek. bile ade niat x bek tu yg jd benci. saket hati. pastu mule la nk nyumpah2. kwn kite kena hargai. kwn bkn sehari dua. kite nk cr kwn yg bleh jd kwn sepanjang idup kite. jd kena la jage ati kwn jgk. jgn selfish. jgn asek letak diri kite je kt dpn. org sekeliling kite pon penting jgk. kalau da janji, jgn wat2 lupe. kena la amanah. dr situ kite dpt nilai erti kwn. nk kwn btol2 ke kwn gitu2 jek. kite pon x le nk expect kwn sentiasa ade utk kite, tp kalau kwn tu asek2 ilang je tibe2, kite pon nyampes. kesimpulannye, kalau ade kwn tu, jage baik2. xmo tikam2 blakang. xbek. sayangi kwn2 anda..

so kwn2 saye x pnah lupe kamu sume. frens r forever. muaxxx

just leave me alone~

coz im all alone~

dont bother bout me anymore~

shocking news---->MJ pass away dis morning.

shocking news---->He declared dat they were couple now.

shocking news---->der's sum1 interested in me.

its been a while aku x tules lam blog ni..2nd week in government sector. serious hell tough job. never tot i will b dis bz n dis important. being a professional is not an easy task. now i know wat is managing people n dats d hardest part of all. i need 2 manage myself 1st. manage my time, manage my everyday life n manage my love life. heh cik Azlin kite ni..bukan main sibuk lg skarang yek. nk reach call pon ssh. asek2 meeting. u sabar sket k. i know ms i x byk sgt utk u. thanks for being understanding...

other things happen when im bz w my work. things going out of my control. its hurting me..bit by bit..but i always remind myself, this thing happen 4 a reason. myb im doing d rite thing, myb not. but wat hapen next is not under my control anymore. pasrah..Allah da tentukan yg terbaik utk kite. jgn selfish. its gud 2 makes sumone hapy even it will hurt urself. i pray for ur happiness. i care..i do care..do take a good care of urself..im always by ur side.

ASTRID~Jadikan Aku Yang Ke-2

jika dia cintaimu

melebihi cintaku padamu

aku pasti rela untuk melepasmu

walau ku tau ku kan terluka

jikalau semua berbeda

kau bukanlah orang yang kupuja

tetapi hatiku telah memilihmu

walau kau tak mungkin tinggalkannya

jadikan aku yang kedua

buatlah diriku bahagia

walau pun kau takkan pernah

kumiliki selamanya...

ade farewell party kt ofis td. tp bkn utk aku. utk yana. die resign jgk. sedih..mmg sedih..even aku pon nk blah da. bile kite da elok2 kwn, dok keja sebumbung, then tibe2 dpt keja kt tempat lain. ssh jgk nk buat decision. tp tu la namenye rezeki. perjalanan hidup panjang lg. jgn cpt puas dgn ape yg kite ade tp bersyukurlah dgn ape yg telah kite kecapi. nextweek i'll stay in putrajaya for a week. ade taklimat. now da ade commitment ngan keja baru. new environment new attitude. ehehe..semangat2. ok guys wish me luck k!

1234..I LOVE U

arini puasa ganti. so i have loads of time kt ofis 2 think about myself. read my fren blog just now. panjang nukilan die. merepek but berisi. ape yg stated kt blog die tu byk yg benar. its reality. maybe people dont know the truth about who we are, what we have done, nmpak baik je outside, but reality we all have bad side. ade envy, ade lust, ade mcm2 lg. kadang2 kite akan rasa menyesal ats ape yg kite da buat. then kite blame diri kite knape ikutkan hati sgt. then we pretend to be wat we are. Allah je yg tahu diri kite lua n dalam. kite x dpt lari dr buat dosa..Allah beri kite peluang utk bertaubat..tp mampukah utk kite x mengulangi kesilapan lampau? hrmmm...im becoming somebody in a month time. kena pk sume ni. org pandang kita tinggi, jgn disebabkan hal lalu, disebabkan kesilapan kite, semuanya hancur berkecai. ape yg kite mampu buat skarang adalah berdoa rahsia itu akan tetap menjadi rahsia n perbaiki diri kite sendiri. jgn ulangi perkara bodoh yg boleh merosakkn reputasi diri. apa yg telah Allah tetapkan pd kite, itula yg terbaik. ikutlah landasan yang benar. hormati diri sendiri dan keluarga.

YA ALLAH..KAU AMPUNKAN SEGALA DOSAKU..YA ALLAH..BIMBINGLAH AKU KE JALANMU... 

Dearest love,

Everytime im thinking of u, im thinking of us. im thinking about all the great times we had together. when i saw u smiling, my heart relief..when u touch my hand, i feel the warmth..when u hug me tight, i heard ur heart beating fast..every moment spent w u r precious. n everytime im w u, i dont wanna go sumwer else. just be by your side. duin nothin....can i be w u forever? time tells..

alhamdulillah....

ALHAMDULILLAH...bersyukur pd rahmat n rezeki Allah..aku akhirnya berjaya melangkah setapak ke hadapan. doa usaha n tawakkal. DIA maha mengetahui, jgn sesekali meraguiNYA. DIA tahu apa yg terbaik utk kita. YAKIN..dengan kasih sayangNYA pd kita. sesungguhnya setiap dugaan yg diberikan adalah ujian yg sementara. yang indah itu pasti akan tiba. SABAR..bersabarlah kerana dgn sabar, dapat menjadikan kita seorang yg bersemangat kental. menghadapi hari2 susah dgn tenang, tanpa keluh kesah. DIA tidak menguji kita di luar kemampuan kita. BERDOA..minta pertolongan kepadaNYA..kerana kita adalah hambaNYA yang lemah. hanya DIA yang mampu meringankan resah di hati ini. hanya DIA yang mampu mengurangkan beban di bahu ini. 

YA ALLAH...HANYA PADAMU AKU BERSERAH..... 

bila aku sudah tiada~HUJAN

Bila, aku sudah tiada
Simpan semua lagu ku
Jangan di tangis selalu

Mungkin, itu sementara
Bila jumpa pengganti ku
jangan di lupakan aku

Pagi itu indah seperti biasa
Tidur yang lena terhenti di sana
Layap kuyu masih tak terdaya
Bukalah tingkap mu
Curahkan cahaya…

Siapa yang sangka
Bila tiba masa kita
Untuk pergi selamanya

Takkan terduga
Jika saat ni
Tuhan tentukan
Aku lah orangnya

Gelak tawa tangisan yang hiba
Kenangan kita masa di dunia
Alangkah indahnya jika
Kita mampu hidup selamanya…

~be strong~

i got a phone call dis evening. saying dat i need 2 report my duty on 15th june 2009. 10 more days to go...shock.totally shock..i got the news w him. he was there on my lap. he saw my shocking face. dunno wat to say, dunno wat to do..i cant express the feelings inside. yerp im glad, but im afraid. afraid to go from dis very familiar place i've been to a new place. will i be stranded there? can i survive? will they accept me? will they see the potential in me? i need 2 grow up. i need 2 bcome sumbody. i need 2 be more than dis. i need 2 prepare the letter for 2moro but i have no idea at all. until today i still feel all the burden on my shoulder. i have big responsibility dat i need 2 pass 2 sum1 else. a mountain of work and promisses. am i ready? i still dun hav the answer. i called the person dat i hope 2 share the gud news. but he hang up. disappointed...ya i do. and the other guy..im not dat important 2 him..but atleast he hav the manners 2 pick up my call. hrmmmm...u guys never want 2 bcome sum1 in my life rite. im nobody.nobody at all.im alone...........all alone.....will i wait for the love of my life? yes i will coz he is d one who accept me 4 who i am. who want me all the time. who share his life w me and want me to share my life w him. dearest love....i love u...i always do...i'll wait 4 u...have faith...be strong...coz the strongest person may win the fight!

my best friend

INTAN MARYAM MOHAMMED FAUAD & NOR AZLIN MOKHTAR

FRIEND SINCE 1998 UNTIL FOREVER

BOTH ARE SINGLE

BOTH ARE MANIAC

BOTH ARE GORGEOUS

BOTH ARE SHOPAHOLIC

BOTH LOVE EACH OTHER

hello!! morning. in d office rite now. should be me on me bed, relax2kn diri di hari2 lampu merah ini. oh perot ku sakit. ade delivery plak. so dtg ofis x wat keja, bukak blog, update blog, then chiow 2 UKM jap lg. singgah jumpe Mc kjap. ade sumthing 2 talk about yer.. kamuu jgn la majukk.. saye sayang kamuuu...hehehe...

lps g UKM nk balik umah tros boleh x? boleh2 sile2 buat mcm ofis sendiri ye. blk nnt online. x mo bg ayeem online. asek2 die je men fb. nk singgah ur blog. even x de post baru, i nk bc yg lame2, nk rating post u. kalau la ade post u 2 utk i. huh pasan2..hehe...

this week ade mood disorder sket. hot & cold. need loads of rest. need sum1 2 accompany. need sum1 to take care.

thanks abg slalu jage alin. i love u so much! muaahhhh!!!

love quotes

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her..

ps: i think i've found dat guy.=)

it's complicated...when it involve feelings...haishh...snap out off it aleng. i know u love being pampered. i know u love being the attention. and i know u love being the beautiful 1. but please hold on to yourself. dont be fooled by those innocent and nice words. or you'll be messing up your life.

can i just give it a try? coz i think i do like him. or we just have to be wat we are rite now? yup frens. he is a fren. dont try to change dat. coz changing the title may cause a heart to break.

as long as we are both happy with wats going on, and i would love to cont having you around.

cheers!!

demam arini. hrmmmm...xde mud nk bekerja. nk blk tp bdn x pns sgt. kepala yg saket. blk je la tdo. baru upload lagu 1234 by Plain White T's. dedicate this song to the 1 and only love i had. even u x suka dgr english song coz ssh nk tangkap meaning lagu 2, but i know u already know how much i love u. even we are not together, i still can feel the warmth of your love in my heart. cinta boleh pudar tapi sayang selamanye kn =)

i believe in you. i believe in your love.

TO LOVE AGAIN ~ LARA FABIAN

Every night every day 
I tell my heart to forget you and to move away 
Not to break anymore 
But, oh, no matter 
What I say 
You're so deep in my mind 
There's no way to leave this love behind 

It used to be 
I believe I could go on and find someone to 
Rest upon anyone, anyone 
Soon I found 
There was no other 
There you are 
Framed against the sky 
You are my life and I pray for when 
You will be mine 
To love again 

I see the rain in the sky 
And I see your face 
Through every tear that I cry 
Whith every breath and every sound 
I can hear another voice and swear that you're around 
And every word is clear 
'Cause I know 
The memory won't let go 
Until you're mine 
To love again 

Who's to say what lives in the past 
Who's to say that love won't last 
Time's been standing still 
Waiting so patiently until 
Until that one day when 
When I will have you 
To love again 

And there you are 
Framed against the sky 
You are my life 
And I pray for when 
You will be mine 
To love again 

finding love.....is not as easy as u thought

i do felt disappointed with what happen. u do wearing a mask all this while. saying things are okay between us even it is not.hope u are happy with your life. i do pray u will find your true love one day. just remember, u are always my friend coz friends are forever.