~be strong~

i got a phone call dis evening. saying dat i need 2 report my duty on 15th june 2009. 10 more days to go...shock.totally shock..i got the news w him. he was there on my lap. he saw my shocking face. dunno wat to say, dunno wat to do..i cant express the feelings inside. yerp im glad, but im afraid. afraid to go from dis very familiar place i've been to a new place. will i be stranded there? can i survive? will they accept me? will they see the potential in me? i need 2 grow up. i need 2 bcome sumbody. i need 2 be more than dis. i need 2 prepare the letter for 2moro but i have no idea at all. until today i still feel all the burden on my shoulder. i have big responsibility dat i need 2 pass 2 sum1 else. a mountain of work and promisses. am i ready? i still dun hav the answer. i called the person dat i hope 2 share the gud news. but he hang up. disappointed...ya i do. and the other guy..im not dat important 2 him..but atleast he hav the manners 2 pick up my call. hrmmmm...u guys never want 2 bcome sum1 in my life rite. im nobody.nobody at all.im alone...........all alone.....will i wait for the love of my life? yes i will coz he is d one who accept me 4 who i am. who want me all the time. who share his life w me and want me to share my life w him. dearest love....i love u...i always do...i'll wait 4 u...have faith...be strong...coz the strongest person may win the fight!