just leave me alone~

coz im all alone~

dont bother bout me anymore~

shocking news---->MJ pass away dis morning.

shocking news---->He declared dat they were couple now.

shocking news---->der's sum1 interested in me.

its been a while aku x tules lam blog ni..2nd week in government sector. serious hell tough job. never tot i will b dis bz n dis important. being a professional is not an easy task. now i know wat is managing people n dats d hardest part of all. i need 2 manage myself 1st. manage my time, manage my everyday life n manage my love life. heh cik Azlin kite ni..bukan main sibuk lg skarang yek. nk reach call pon ssh. asek2 meeting. u sabar sket k. i know ms i x byk sgt utk u. thanks for being understanding...

other things happen when im bz w my work. things going out of my control. its hurting me..bit by bit..but i always remind myself, this thing happen 4 a reason. myb im doing d rite thing, myb not. but wat hapen next is not under my control anymore. pasrah..Allah da tentukan yg terbaik utk kite. jgn selfish. its gud 2 makes sumone hapy even it will hurt urself. i pray for ur happiness. i care..i do care..do take a good care of urself..im always by ur side.

ASTRID~Jadikan Aku Yang Ke-2

jika dia cintaimu

melebihi cintaku padamu

aku pasti rela untuk melepasmu

walau ku tau ku kan terluka

jikalau semua berbeda

kau bukanlah orang yang kupuja

tetapi hatiku telah memilihmu

walau kau tak mungkin tinggalkannya

jadikan aku yang kedua

buatlah diriku bahagia

walau pun kau takkan pernah

kumiliki selamanya...

ade farewell party kt ofis td. tp bkn utk aku. utk yana. die resign jgk. sedih..mmg sedih..even aku pon nk blah da. bile kite da elok2 kwn, dok keja sebumbung, then tibe2 dpt keja kt tempat lain. ssh jgk nk buat decision. tp tu la namenye rezeki. perjalanan hidup panjang lg. jgn cpt puas dgn ape yg kite ade tp bersyukurlah dgn ape yg telah kite kecapi. nextweek i'll stay in putrajaya for a week. ade taklimat. now da ade commitment ngan keja baru. new environment new attitude. ehehe..semangat2. ok guys wish me luck k!

1234..I LOVE U

arini puasa ganti. so i have loads of time kt ofis 2 think about myself. read my fren blog just now. panjang nukilan die. merepek but berisi. ape yg stated kt blog die tu byk yg benar. its reality. maybe people dont know the truth about who we are, what we have done, nmpak baik je outside, but reality we all have bad side. ade envy, ade lust, ade mcm2 lg. kadang2 kite akan rasa menyesal ats ape yg kite da buat. then kite blame diri kite knape ikutkan hati sgt. then we pretend to be wat we are. Allah je yg tahu diri kite lua n dalam. kite x dpt lari dr buat dosa..Allah beri kite peluang utk bertaubat..tp mampukah utk kite x mengulangi kesilapan lampau? hrmmm...im becoming somebody in a month time. kena pk sume ni. org pandang kita tinggi, jgn disebabkan hal lalu, disebabkan kesilapan kite, semuanya hancur berkecai. ape yg kite mampu buat skarang adalah berdoa rahsia itu akan tetap menjadi rahsia n perbaiki diri kite sendiri. jgn ulangi perkara bodoh yg boleh merosakkn reputasi diri. apa yg telah Allah tetapkan pd kite, itula yg terbaik. ikutlah landasan yang benar. hormati diri sendiri dan keluarga.

YA ALLAH..KAU AMPUNKAN SEGALA DOSAKU..YA ALLAH..BIMBINGLAH AKU KE JALANMU... 

Dearest love,

Everytime im thinking of u, im thinking of us. im thinking about all the great times we had together. when i saw u smiling, my heart relief..when u touch my hand, i feel the warmth..when u hug me tight, i heard ur heart beating fast..every moment spent w u r precious. n everytime im w u, i dont wanna go sumwer else. just be by your side. duin nothin....can i be w u forever? time tells..

alhamdulillah....

ALHAMDULILLAH...bersyukur pd rahmat n rezeki Allah..aku akhirnya berjaya melangkah setapak ke hadapan. doa usaha n tawakkal. DIA maha mengetahui, jgn sesekali meraguiNYA. DIA tahu apa yg terbaik utk kita. YAKIN..dengan kasih sayangNYA pd kita. sesungguhnya setiap dugaan yg diberikan adalah ujian yg sementara. yang indah itu pasti akan tiba. SABAR..bersabarlah kerana dgn sabar, dapat menjadikan kita seorang yg bersemangat kental. menghadapi hari2 susah dgn tenang, tanpa keluh kesah. DIA tidak menguji kita di luar kemampuan kita. BERDOA..minta pertolongan kepadaNYA..kerana kita adalah hambaNYA yang lemah. hanya DIA yang mampu meringankan resah di hati ini. hanya DIA yang mampu mengurangkan beban di bahu ini. 

YA ALLAH...HANYA PADAMU AKU BERSERAH..... 

bila aku sudah tiada~HUJAN

Bila, aku sudah tiada
Simpan semua lagu ku
Jangan di tangis selalu

Mungkin, itu sementara
Bila jumpa pengganti ku
jangan di lupakan aku

Pagi itu indah seperti biasa
Tidur yang lena terhenti di sana
Layap kuyu masih tak terdaya
Bukalah tingkap mu
Curahkan cahaya…

Siapa yang sangka
Bila tiba masa kita
Untuk pergi selamanya

Takkan terduga
Jika saat ni
Tuhan tentukan
Aku lah orangnya

Gelak tawa tangisan yang hiba
Kenangan kita masa di dunia
Alangkah indahnya jika
Kita mampu hidup selamanya…

~be strong~

i got a phone call dis evening. saying dat i need 2 report my duty on 15th june 2009. 10 more days to go...shock.totally shock..i got the news w him. he was there on my lap. he saw my shocking face. dunno wat to say, dunno wat to do..i cant express the feelings inside. yerp im glad, but im afraid. afraid to go from dis very familiar place i've been to a new place. will i be stranded there? can i survive? will they accept me? will they see the potential in me? i need 2 grow up. i need 2 bcome sumbody. i need 2 be more than dis. i need 2 prepare the letter for 2moro but i have no idea at all. until today i still feel all the burden on my shoulder. i have big responsibility dat i need 2 pass 2 sum1 else. a mountain of work and promisses. am i ready? i still dun hav the answer. i called the person dat i hope 2 share the gud news. but he hang up. disappointed...ya i do. and the other guy..im not dat important 2 him..but atleast he hav the manners 2 pick up my call. hrmmmm...u guys never want 2 bcome sum1 in my life rite. im nobody.nobody at all.im alone...........all alone.....will i wait for the love of my life? yes i will coz he is d one who accept me 4 who i am. who want me all the time. who share his life w me and want me to share my life w him. dearest love....i love u...i always do...i'll wait 4 u...have faith...be strong...coz the strongest person may win the fight!